Deviation Actions
Description
To make less rough my life
and less painfull the battle,
I've told my thoughts "¡Be quiet, quiet!"
and told to the harmed heart: "¡Forget it, forget it!"
[...]
(Sounds better in spanish, pretty great, I promise)
-Fernando Celada
(Méxican poet 1872-1929)
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So, I don't know if what I'm trying to do is the correct or the best to do.
I've been trying hard enough to shut the fuck up my heart, and forget the one I've been thinking of...
I've been trying to look to other people, other places, other posibilities, but he just comes up in my mind everytime I feel happy, and it feels like a torturing memory of the present. So, wtf?
I ...
want ...
to quit. (Making him fall in love with me***)
He is never ever going to feel the same way again, and I know that he believes that we could bebetter together, smiling and sharing this life we are in. And I have in my mind this believe that if you want to be with someone, you must fight, and I've tried, really hard, I swear, but I still don't know what is missing, or what is lefting, and the only answer I find is to get out, to quit this battle.
Keep in touch, man. I worry about you.